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I wanna wake up!

On Sunday, December 21, 2008

"Every passing minute is another chance to turn it all around."

"David: I like your life.
Sofía: Well, it's mine and you can't have it! "

"My dreams are a cruel joke. They taunt me. Even in my dreams I'm an idiot... who knows he's about to wake up to reality. If I could only avoid sleep. But I can't. I try to tell myself what to dream. I try to dream that I am flying. Something free. It never works... "

"What is any life without the pursuit of a dream? "

"The little things.
There's nothing bigger,is there?"

"I want to live a real life... I don't want to dream any longer. "

"I wanna wake up!"

"Vanilla Sky", a movie that was released in the year 2001. I always wanted to watch that movie, but I got the chance to, only yesterday. The movie tells a story about a man, who wakes up finding the city empty around him, no signs of life...Then he wakes up again, realizing this was only a bad dream. Events go on, and he keeps waking up, at a moment, you can't tell what's a dream and what's not. Then, you see him sitting in cell with a shrink, trying to solve his problem. At this moment, you believe the man is sick, his subconscious is creating all that. Suddenly, everything changes, seeing this company offering life extension project. He signed a contract with the company, to get his body frozen after death, where he can start his never ending dream "Lucid Dream"..He can choose how his life will look like, dream with whatever he wants. But he didn't get enough training, so the dream turned into a nightmare! At this moment, he was offered a choice, how would he want his life to look like. Finally, he chooses real life!!

A moment of thinking, and something hits me in the head, some really strong idea. Could this really be?? Could this be the real idea of the movie?! This movie looks much like my life, a happy sweet dream, that suddenly turns into a series of nightmares!! Is this the only solution?! Should I die to wake up of this nightmare! Is this what life is really about, for everyone?? Is everyone living this series of nightmares that only ends when he is dead?? Not ONLY ME!!! Isn't there a hope, that the nightmare, turns into a sweet dream again?! Should I stop dreaming?!!
I even sometimes don't know, if this is life or it's a dream. Am I awake, or it's just a nightmare, that will end soon.

I wake up, take my shower, get dressed to go to work, take the bus, meet you in the subway station. We take the metro together to Maadi, you leave, and I leave just two stations after you. But before you leave, we set for tonight plans. Today is Thursday, we plan to have this long hours walk together....never feel tired...never get bored. Sweet Thursdays!! How I miss those days!! I wish I can wake up someday and this is all over, and maybe, never sleep again so this nightmare doesn't come back!!

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