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My Life...

Bitter taste, heavy load.
Nowhere to run, no one to lean on.
Still living, no choices!
Same road, same darkness, same thorns, but I can still see the light!
Light is it?! Hope it isn't an illusion!

Friends?! I've known a lot.
But, people come and go!
Alone, I remain in the end.
It's the same way every time.
Come, fill my life with hope, say goodbye, leave me alone!

Love? I remember that feeling, met it once.
But, like everything, it had to go!

Security? What? What does that mean?!

Peace? Where can I find that??

Happiness? What are you talking about? How does that feel?

Hope? Yes, maybe one day I die and go to Heaven!

Choices? I wish I never had to choose!
Confusion, going to the unknown!
Fear of the results.
Most of the cases, unpleasant, not as desired!

Stress? Having to go through things that I really hate...
Afraid of hurting people, caring for them, more than I care for myself...
And the outcome, like always, I'm the only one hurt, everybody else is just PERFECT!!

Pain? my best friend...
Always there for me...
Never let me go, never leave me alone
Sharing my life, a real companion, that I can't imagine living without!

Contradictions? Everywhere inside of me.
Live for me??? Will living for me be a real life?!
Living for all? I think yes, that's the real life...

My days, my LIFE...
You will pass anyway, good or bad, you will just do...
No matter what you do to me,
I only care to make that effect, leave that mark!!
I'm ready to die for love, for the happiness of everyone..
Maybe no one cares for me, sees me, or even knows that I exist...
But that's what keeps me living...
Or I will live and die in vain!!!
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"Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself. He threshes you to make you naked. He sifts you to free you from your husks. He grinds you to whiteness. He kneads you until you are pliant; And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God’s sacred feast."

The Prophet ~ Khalil Gibran