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Your first dress

Today is the 18th of January. I have been in the UAE for 10 days now. Depression has been taking over the past few days. I guess it is because of the effort I make that my body is not used to.

Recently, we have got two babies in the family. So, I decided that I should get the new borns clothes from here. I decided that I should take all the way to the mall walking, maybe I would lose that depression. And, guess what, I felt much better just the moment I went inside that mall, though my legs and my knees hurt. I decided that I should have a good intake of chocolate to help more with the depression, then start my journey of search.

All alone walking, and searching, of course I was thinking too, that I lost my way lots of times inside the mall. Many things were getting clearer. I believe I feel much better alone, I prefer to be by myself. I miss you!! I don't know why, but I feel so much like hugging you. Isn't it about time to buy you clothes. I always buy stuff to other babies. And, it should be your turn now. Only one problem shows, I have no idea how old you would be when we first meet. This looks like stopping me. But, let me think more, I have decided already that you would be a year at most. So, it would be a good idea to buy you a dress for that age, 12 months. Maybe it won't be the first you wear, but it will be the first I buy for you. But, what if it is a waste of money, I am not sure that I will ever meet you! This is the worst idea of all, I know that I can attract you to my life, it is all about intention. So, after a lot of hesitation and doubt, after a lot of walking, losing my way many times. I made the decision, I went into that store "monsoon" and I bought you such a beautiful dress. I attach it's photo here.


 I have always loved "monsoon" I think I will consider this our store. This is where we will shop our new dresses together...someday :)
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