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Delusion

My girl, take care, sometimes when you are filled with hope you may be delusional. You may see things that don't exist. Your mind will go interpret everything that serves your hopes. Yes, it is good to have hopes and dreams, but it is bad, very bad, to be delusional!

Don't ever expect people who let you go will come back again for you. If they thought you are worthless probably this won't change. Be sure that those who care for you will move mountains to be with you. If they don't, then probably they don't care well enough.

There are moments when you have to do everything to prove your love and care to people, and when you are sure you have done your part, it should be their turn to do the same. Sometimes it is now or never! Sometimes you could be so weak that you can't wait any longer! If they don't do their part, and if they ignore all your needs, then they never deserved it from the beginning.

I wish I could come with you with a fairy tale that proves that true love never dies, and that your love will come back in the end. I wish I could tell you that you won't need to experience this pain, or heartbreak. But, I experienced it on many aspects, friends or loved ones. There were lots who betrayed me. Who betrayed my love and care for them. Who betrayed my heart and all the love I had towards them.

If this ever happens to you, let go, never look back. Know that you deserve better. Don't allow anyone to break your heart more than once! They don't deserve that sweet heart of yours. They don't deserve your tears. They don't deserve the time you spend faithful to them.

I only wish if this ever happens to you I would still be alive taking care of you. I have been there a lot, and I know how hard it is! You deserve the best my love, my dearest girl. I will love you now and forever :*

By the way, till this moment I have no idea about what's next in our journey. You know, you are my best friend, so when I feel I need to talk I just talk to you. I have just sent Tariq a reminder maybe I get to know anything new :)

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