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Teenage Wisdom

Thought It will take me longer to start writing again, but, what's happening in my life these days needs reflection! All my posts here were a way I reflected on my life and incidents to get more understanding and awareness about myself. Sharing these thoughts maybe they could inspire others who need inspiration. 

Twenty years ago, I had my special beliefs about mysef. Beliefs about what suits me best, and how I shoud live my life. Those beliefs were too odd that they brought doubt in me. For the past twenty years I have been trying so hard to fit in the "even" society. And what happened is that I spent those years feeling lost and confused. I have lost a lot during those years. Disregarding that I am twenty years older, my health is not as it used to be. I look older, with few wrinkles aroud my eyes. It took a broken heart to reach that point I am claiming now.

During the past couple of weeks I have been feeling a storm of change, and deep inside it felt the same as it did ten years ago, when I had to take a decision that I had been postponing for too long. A decision that neededs a leap of faith. Though I take those leaps maybe once a year, some of them need real strength, and a lot of calculations.

The funny thing is that a couple of years ago, I started to go back to my old beliefs, one by one, and I found out that they started to surface again. I am just back there, this is the true me. Before, I believed that I can't be married to an egyptian, now I am sure I can't!  Before, I had a fascination about Denmarks, and that it would be the best place on earth "for me" to live in. Now, again I am back to those exact feelings and beliefs. And the list goes on!

The lesson I learned, wasting the 20 years of my youth, is that I should have followed my heart from the start. I should have faught for a life in Denmarks, find the man who is strong enough to handle me, love me with all my madness, respect my beliefs and my wild heart. Follow my passions. Study psychology. Help as much people as I can...What I tell myself now is that it is never too late, I already started following my heart, but when you get older it becomes harder as your opportunities are not much.

Never try to fit in. Be yourself. Fly! 😊


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"Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself. He threshes you to make you naked. He sifts you to free you from your husks. He grinds you to whiteness. He kneads you until you are pliant; And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God’s sacred feast."

The Prophet ~ Khalil Gibran