Mind, Heart & Soul

They keep telling us that letting go is about forgiving and forgetting. They say when you do forgive and forget you are released from the past, from the abusive relationship, from the ghost of that person hunting you. But, what if you forgive, and forget, and try to move on but still feel stuck in their energy? As if they have octopus arms that keep dragging you back to their being, and there seems no way to escape! Maybe what you have been told all your life is wrong. Maybe in some cases it is not enough to just forgive and forget. Maybe, just maybe, you need to walk one extra mile in their favour so their arms are unwind and you are able run your own life. You believe he/she is a devil, who doesn't deserve good? Maybe they are, but the universe has other plans than having them punished directly for the wrong the did to you. Maybe, they are not as bad as you believe. Maybe, it is all about walking that extra mile to release yourself. It is about you, not about who they are or what...

Dear George, I was shocked to read the news that you passed away. That was not expected at all! It is such a loss. You were one of my best friends, though we never met! My good friend is dead! You know you don't have to meet someone to be friends with. But, if their words affect the way you grow that is even a better reason to become friends, at one side of course! You taught me good music, added to my vocabulary, emotions, self respect, caring for others, you taught me how to be human! I get consumed in my day to day life, years pass while am trying to maintain a "good" life. Confusions, disappointments, heartbreaks, but I always knew I got my back. I would always turn to you when I felt the urge to let my emotions rush out of my heart.  Now I feel old, one of my best friends is already dead. I am not a young woman anymore, only a middle aged stuck in this world. I lost my youth over fake people and lost dreams.  Regret, is what I feel writing this,  one of my dr...

Thought It will take me longer to start writing again, but, what's happening in my life these days needs reflection! All my posts here were a way I reflected on my life and incidents to get more understanding and awareness about myself. Sharing these thoughts maybe they could inspire others who need inspiration.  Twenty years ago, I had my special beliefs about mysef. Beliefs about what suits me best, and how I shoud live my life. Those beliefs were too odd that they brought doubt in me. For the past twenty years I have been trying so hard to fit in the "even" society. And what happened is that I spent those years feeling lost and confused. I have lost a lot during those years. Disregarding that I am twenty years older, my health is not as it used to be. I look older, with few wrinkles aroud my eyes. It took a broken heart to reach that point I am claiming now. During the past couple of weeks I have been feeling a storm of change, and deep inside it felt the same as it di...

Marwan once told his sister: "You will never succeed in marriage, you are a free woman. Any man here would always try to enslave you. That's when you will choke, and you will break that marriage." My dear teenage brorther managed to solve my lifetime riddle. With his simple words he inspired me with the solution that took many years in vain; why it never works? though each and every one I meet is totally different than the others, what is the common thing between them that makes it fail? The answer is simple; they are all slaves! I wasted many years of my life trying to find the "right man", and it never worked. In each relationship of these, long or short, I had to pay an expensive price, either from my faith, my health, energry, or my youth years! I paid dearly! They are all slaves! For any given moment, or any given situation, you always have the choice to be a free man or a slave. Each one of them, in a given moment or a given situation decided to be a slave...