Mind, Heart & Soul

They keep telling us that letting go is about forgiving and forgetting. They say when you do forgive and forget you are released from the past, from the abusive relationship, from the ghost of that person hunting you. But, what if you forgive, and forget, and try to move on but still feel stuck in their energy? As if they have octopus arms that keep dragging you back to their being, and there seems no way to escape! Maybe what you have been told all your life is wrong. Maybe in some cases it is not enough to just forgive and forget. Maybe, just maybe, you need to walk one extra mile in their favour so their arms are unwind and you are able run your own life. You believe he/she is a devil, who doesn't deserve good? Maybe they are, but the universe has other plans than having them punished directly for the wrong the did to you. Maybe, they are not as bad as you believe. Maybe, it is all about walking that extra mile to release yourself. It is about you, not about who they are or what...

"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it." - Paulo Coelho Intention is not a wish, it is a decision. A decision to make a change, a decision to keep going no matter what teasers could be thrown your way to change your mind. Intention is a feeling of peace inside, a feeling that you know exactly what you want. And that you know as well it may not be easy to achieve it. Intention means you decided to take that leap of faith, and there is no going back. If you have the real intentions, the universe will help you do it.

As you watch a baby grow, you see that this happens in phases; there's the phase when he didn't know how to sit, but then he learns to, then he starts to crawl, then walk, then talk...and so on. You never see a baby who sticks to any of these phases, or tries to go back to a previous one, he never decides to stop walking and lay in bed as he used to before he learned to sit. Phases are clear when it comes to those little humans. As we grow older, our growth and maturity happens inside of us, it is mental and emotional, not physical and tangible as it happens with the babies. But, we tend to not be willing to grow up or mature. We try to stick around that latest phase we have accomplished. We believe that growing up is painful. We need to learn from the babies that when a phase is over we should let go, and enjoy all the excitement about the new phase, never look back. We should love that we matured into a new person.

We are frequently challenged in life, life would ask a question and throw many answers from which we have to choose only one. By human nature, we tend to choose the easiest answer, which is unfortunately the wrong answer. You were challenged in the first place to grow, to learn something new about life or about yourself. It is a chance that life offers you to mature, to become a better version of you. Choosing the "easy" answer, or path won't take you anywhere. You will only keep running in spirals and you will have to face the same question again. When life throws a challenge in your way, take your time, think, find which of them makes you most uncomfortable. That is the right answer...the right path. All you need to do then is take the "leap of faith"...and before you know it all your fear will be gone, and everything becomes under control. Never let fear choose for you!

Wishing for something is one thing, and expecting how it is going to happen is another. We often wish for things expecting we get them a way or another, blinding ourselves from other odd ways that could lead to our wishes. Clinging to the method rather than the goal, focusing on the how and the when instead of being open to all possibilities. That is how we often have our wishes disregarded. Open your eyes and heart. Don't be afraid. Your wishes could be granted in the most extraordinary ways.

"I will be a failure"...She said... The only way you can "be a failure" is when you stop trying, and this is a decision. Though, from time to time you have to experience failure, so you learn new things about yourself. You grow up to a better version of yourself. And that is a decision too. When you fall down, you gotta decide if you will stay down or if you will pick yourself up again. When you stand up again, you do learning a lesson. While this happens, you may spend months or even years. And those years are not really wasted, actually they are your best. The ones you used to mature. Maybe you won't see a tangible result. But, deep inside you will feel it. You are not a failure, unless you decide to be.

When you know yourself more, when you are being the one you wish to be, you will enjoy your company and never feel lonely again. Look inside of you, face your demons. It is the things we bury deep inside that make us seek others, trying to ignore the harsh feelings hunting us, and fill the emptiness we have. Facing those things is the first step you need to take to know yourself more, change yourself to the one you wish to be, and be happy.

Thought It will take me longer to start writing again, but, what's happening in my life these days needs reflection! All my posts here were a way I reflected on my life and incidents to get more understanding and awareness about myself. Sharing these thoughts maybe they could inspire others who need inspiration.  Twenty years ago, I had my special beliefs about mysef. Beliefs about what suits me best, and how I shoud live my life. Those beliefs were too odd that they brought doubt in me. For the past twenty years I have been trying so hard to fit in the "even" society. And what happened is that I spent those years feeling lost and confused. I have lost a lot during those years. Disregarding that I am twenty years older, my health is not as it used to be. I look older, with few wrinkles aroud my eyes. It took a broken heart to reach that point I am claiming now. During the past couple of weeks I have been feeling a storm of change, and deep inside it felt the same as it di...

My girl, take care, sometimes when you are filled with hope you may be delusional. You may see things that don't exist. Your mind will go interpret everything that serves your hopes. Yes, it is good to have hopes and dreams, but it is bad, very bad, to be delusional! Don't ever expect people who let you go will come back again for you. If they thought you are worthless probably this won't change. Be sure that those who care for you will move mountains to be with you. If they don't, then probably they don't care well enough. There are moments when you have to do everything to prove your love and care to people, and when you are sure you have done your part, it should be their turn to do the same. Sometimes it is now or never! Sometimes you could be so weak that you can't wait any longer! If they don't do their part, and if they ignore all your needs, then they never deserved it from the beginning. I wish I could come with you with a fairy tale that pro...

It is a fight between the mind and the soul. Your soul with its expanded unlimited world knows what's best for you. Your mind with its limited little experience believes it is not, because it looks impossible to it or because your society tells you "you can't do it". The right path is the path that makes you happy, no matter how hard it looks like. If you you are not feeling happy, then know for sure you are not taking the right path. Listen deeply to your soul, it knows the answer! Your soul is the connection between you and God. God talks to you through your soul. If you have no clue, don't think, ask for His help and listen!! Keep the faith and follow the instructions your soul tells you, with the very first step you take, you will feel the lightness of your heart. And, though you know what's coming ahead is not easy, you start feeling the true happiness. Happiness is not about the goals achieved, it is about walking the right path. It is about the ...

Just an idea came to my mind, people tend to lose hope cause they add the "when" parameter to the "what" they want to achieve or see; * They worry about the "when" more than the "what". * When they can't see the "when" they lose vision of the "what". * They think the "what" is impossible when the "when" is not given. If we think of anything we have achieved, or anything happened around the world, we will find out that no one ever knew when exactly he will be able to achieve his goal or get his change done. When Edison was trying to invent the bulb, he didn't know when exactly he will see it working in front of his eyes. When you applied for university, you didn't have knowledge when you would graduate, yes, you knew it should take 4 years or so, but, were you so sure this is the time it would take to graduate? You could get sick and miss some exams, and lose a year. You could face trouble ...

Show me a situation that is more disgusting than what we are living now, you asked. I can show you one mister, yours! Can you show me the difference between someone who kills bodies and someone who kills souls? They both have reasons to kill. They both have their valid excuses that are perfectly aligned with their values. They both go back to their normal lives enjoying every bit and every moment. They watch their kids grow. They wish their kids wonderful lives. They both never look in their mirrors to see the ugly beasts hidden within their bodies. They both never look back at their victims. Their victims were probably someones who cried out loud for freedom, their killers freedom! They are both killers, and that's what you are! You won't see your kids having wonderful lives, your deprived someone else of her life! But, one day you will have to face it, no matter how hard you try to hide, or how fast you run, in this world or another, you will face it. So, till ...

Background: At home we face a problem with light bulbs, a bulb last for a month or so. We barely have our living room chandelier with full capacity working. Note: We never considered eco lights, I don't believe they are environment friendly, considering how to get rid of them! Yesterday, I went to the supermarket with mom. And regarding the background above, buying light bulbs is a kind of scientific research! So, mom picked one new brand we never tried. There was written that this bulb should last for 9 years and that was tested! At one side of the box was written that this is considered while the bulb is on for 3 hours a day!! And that it is made in Egypt!! So, automatically, we put it back in the row! Now, I am thinking, whoever wrote this on the box, does he really live in Egypt? Does he know we have 12 hours of night?? How can I use the bulb for only 3 hours a day? Should I use candles the rest of the night or what!! Ok, why did we gave up on candles? Why did Edison i...

As defined in wikipedia; The comfort zone is a behavioural state within which a person operates in an anxiety-neutral condition, using a limited set of behaviours to deliver a steady level of performance, usually without a sense of risk. While the optimal performance zone is a zone in which the performance of a person can be enhanced and in which their skills can be optimized. This zone is reached by increasing the levels of anxiety to reach more stress, resulting in enhanced levels of concentration and focus. From the definitions above one can deduce; - Leaving comfort zone implies risk taking. Taking risks is not that scary if they are calculated. Calculated risk is not 100% safe, it is still a risk, but it is not lunatic too. - Comfort zone doesn't mean a happy zone. It is a zone that we are used to. We know everything about it, we got used to the pain within it. - Leaving a comfort zone doesn't mean a dramatic change. In order to keep the person safe, the change need...

The coming few lines are written with regard to my own beliefs! The truth is that there is no truth! Yes, it is only opinions, that come from perceptions, that come from experiences. Everyone has got his unique experience. So, there is no one single truth. Everyone has got his own truth! Applying this to the day to day communication with the world; life can turn into hell, like it is now with all parts of the world that do not support the freedom of opinion. Since God knew that about us, He decided to help us with "the ultimate truth", the guide that if we follow, we won't have this controversy. The guide is the Quran. Why the "ultimate" truth? It was made by The Creator of everything. If we think of other human made teachings; we will find that they follow the first paragraph. They are just opinions of people. The opinions that come from perceptions, the perceptions that come from experiences. I am not saying that those teachings or religions are good o...

How can I start?! 2013 was a special year to me. During the past 10 years, I have experienced a lot, physically or emotionally, personally or career wise. But, in 2013, I literally experienced everything. It was like the sum of all experiences and feelings collected together. I had a loss, a great one, that I lost the interest of living. For the first time in my life, I was diagnosed as depressed! I experienced sickness, that I had to spend a lot of time lying and not able to move. For the first time in my life, I know how bad it feels to be sick and paralysed, weak and helpless. I was even in a relationship that let me learn a lot about myself, seems that what I've already known was not enough! But, I can state it loudly, 2013 I am grateful to you! You are the year for determination for me. A lot of things were clear during this year. A lot of decisions were made. Roads were crossed. And, I started moving on to where I know I wanna be. I quit my career. I started a business. I...

Same hearts broken ... Same tears ... Same feelings ... Same complications ... Same old story ... Only two different souls ... How sarcastic it is to watch the same story going over and over again. And it only goes this way, because those people really loved each other. If they never did, it would have gone much more simpler. Lovers, soul mates, or whatever name you may give to them. They are just two hearts tied together and they both know how together they become a unique soul that can give a lot to the world. But, unfortunately, it's complicated! So, lets see where the complication starts. In about 90% of the stories I've been through, it was always the same mistake. One of the hearts, looks at his weaknesses, and so believes the other is too good for them. And that it would be much better for that other, if he leaves silently and peacefully! And, so stupidly, he does that, without even talking to the other, or even asking what they could be thinking of, or if they had ano...

I apologize to Mr. Abbas Ibn Firnas for not knowing him well enough, and mocker him as if he was a madman. I apologize for every famous scientist, for every hero, who lead the Islamic civilization one day, when Europe was drowning in the dark ages! Lately, Vodafone Egypt started a campaign with a series of ads. The ads don't only reveal the ignorance of MY generation, but, from the ads, I can see, no morals, no identity, no knowledge, just nothing. It shows that the hibernation phase we have been through, took so long, that we lost everything, and I believe this is becoming too dangerous. Thanks God, there are still some survivors, who woke up, and asked for banning the ad that mockers Abbas Ibn Firnas. I believe the ad is already stopped, thanks Vodafone for respecting your customers voices. What's really ironic, is that Mr. Ahmad AlShugairi 's last season of his TV program "Khawater (thoughts)" was dedicated to those scientists and heroes. And he had a special...

Sunday, April 15, 1962 As I was getting ready to leave, I decided to ask him once more about the enemies of a man of knowledge. I argued that I could not return for some time, and it would be a good idea to write down what he had to say and then think about it while I was away. He hesitated for a while, but then he began to talk. "When a man starts to learn, he is never clear about his objectives. His purpose is faulty; his intent is vague. He hopes for rewards that will never materialize, for he knows nothing of the hardships of learning. "He slowly begins to learn - bit by bit at first, then in big chunks. And his thoughts soon clash. What he learns is never what he pictured, or imagined, and so he begins to be afraid. Learning is never what one expects. Every step of learning is a new task, and the fear the man is experiencing begins to mount mercilessly, unyieldingly. His purpose becomes a battlefield. "And thus he has stumbled upon the first of his natural...

(I had a comment that this could be a spoiler for the movie. So, please, if you didn't watch the movie, don't read :))) ) Another fight between good and bad. And like most science fiction movies, some species is invading some planet. But, this time, planet earth inhabitants are the invaders ... the bad guys! The victim planet is named "Pandora". Pandora people, like all other people, are defending their planet. They look like an African tribe, with limited education and understanding of life, or as the invaders see them! Of course, with this limited education, they can't beat the "Earthians" with all the technology and power they have. But, since the Earthians are too good, as they have always shown they are, they try to find a way to convince the Pandora people to let them take their needs and go! So, they use a paralyzed man belonging to their planet to do the job. The man looked so desperate and helpless, but, by the end of the movie, he turns to be a...