Emotional decision cycle

Stage 1:
Everything, all the signs look positive. (Stable State of Heart)
No answers, no clues, not a sign of anything I can do. (Helpless State of Mind)


Stage 2:
More new positive signs. The target seems so close. (Happy State of Heart)
New signs, a clue, a brilliant idea! (Trust is the State of Mind)


Stage 3:
Negative signs start showing up. Things start to look messy. (Pessimistic State of Heart)
The target starts fading away. Don't know what I should really do. Should I keep on, or let go! (Confusion State of Mind)


Stage 4:
Even more negative signs. I feel that I don't wanna do it. (Closure State of Heart)
No solution, no clues. (Helpless State of Mind)


Why did this cycle start? I don't really know. What was the aim? What are You trying to tell me God? I can't get it! Either, I'm too blessed, or too cursed. God, please, guide me to the right direction. You know it's Your satisfaction that I care for. Don't let me down. Please help me!!!