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True Love

As a newly broken hearted, for a second time, I was just thinking, why is it always the end of true love? All "True" love stories I heard, have this un-happy endings, including mine! A true love that lasted for 10 years now, and I know will remain in me till I die. He broke my heart twice, and though I wish him all the happiness in the world.

What I believe, is that, you only know it was true love, when it's gone! When you have to go through many obstacles, lots of pain, tears that can't be counted, and at last, you discover you can't forget him. Only then, you know it's true love, and only then, he will say it's too late, there are no second chances! Well, this was my case. But, I'm sure there are many other cases. With the same last result. They are apart. And though, everyone is somewhere else, he/she's still beside him/her. She/He will always remain a part of him/her. Only, because it's true love.

A few brave people will decide to give it another chance. To forget about all the misunderstandings and make a fresh new start. But, the decision takes two. And though, one of the parties is too brave and strong, and so much in love that he's ready to pay all he's got, to have his love by his side again. He will probably fail. Because THE DECISION TAKES TWO!

I know I was wrong, to ever think he could think of me again. I know, I will be living, somewhere deep inside of him, and maybe he himself doesn't know it! And, I am sure now there should be another road for me to take. I'm not sad, and I'm not happy either, I don't really know how I feel. And though, I'm crying, thought my tears tried long ago. I am crying, because I don't know how to feel. I'm crying, because I have to take the sad road that I hate. Now, I'm sure I'll have to go all on my own, or this is how it seems to be now!

For all the pain I've been through, for all the prayers I said, for all the love I have for you. I thank you God, I know You have chosen for me. And my love for You is superior to anything else. I don't care if I have him or not. You are my first and last love, ALWAYS!

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