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Dying!!! Could it be?!!!

As a long term sufferer and a strong believer, I've been always seeking signs to tell me when my sufferings will end. Asking God to guide me, and give me help to get over it. About two weeks ago, I started seeing sings that my sufferings are ending soon. It felt really relieving.

But, suddenly, I started reading different signs. All the new signs talked about death and judgment day! Now, I can't help it but start believing that yes, those suffering years are ending soon, but in a different, unexpected way! Could it really be? Am I dying soon?!! Actually, it doesn't feel like a bad idea. It is not because I'm depressed or anything. I just believe that the best is waiting for me in the other world, and I really miss God!
It feels weird. A bit terrifying, going to the unknown! A bit not happy, because I didn't really do all I wanted to. I still have lots of dreams to fulfill, of course, those dreams are not concerning me personally. I always wished I will have the chance to live and help the world come a better place. But, if this is the choice of God, He already knows my intentions. And, I know I will get my reward anyway!

So, I'm taking the chance now, if I'm ever to die soon, to tell you thank you, everyone of you. Everyone I ever met, even if we didn't talk. Thank you for being a part of my life, thank you for all the lessons you taught me. And for my close ones, thank you for being there for me. And, I'm sorry if I let anyone down. Please, believe me, I always had good intentions, even if things didn't look that way. If I hurt you by any means. I'm sorry. If we ever fought, If I ever talked bad of you, please, forgive me. Please, believe that I've loved you someway. And, if I ever to die before you do, please, remember me in your prayers.
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  1. Fatma AliApril 13, 2010 at 9:59 AM

    enta mota2akeda en el signals de kanet gayalek matla7'batetsh m3a signals beta3et wa7ed fel 2sr el 3eeny?

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  2. Naela OmarApril 13, 2010 at 10:46 AM

    :D wallahy mesh 3arfa... mesh hatefre2 keteer anyway!!!

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