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The windmills of your mind

You think of her and you smile.
You miss the look in her eyes.
You miss the smile on her face.
You miss the touch of her hand.
You miss the way she said "I love you"
You think when you will see her again.
A sudden pain you feel in your heart, with a vague thought that you can't understand.
No, you are not allowed to see her anymore. She is the one who stabbed you near your heart. She is the one who killed you.
Now, you don't know what is your reality and what's just a dream.
Dreaming of her became your reality, and your reality is only a nightmare you wish will end one day!

Your heart wishes, and your mind slaps you back!
Those dreams are not allowed anymore. Just wake up for your new reality. You will never see her again.
You will never enjoy that time you spent together again. The time that you felt you stole from the whole world, just to be with her. Never again!
She is the one who killed you, how could you still be in love with her! You are dead now, and dead people don't love. Dead people don't dream. Dead people don't even wish. All you can do now is live like a zombie, you are not alive, not dead. A living body with a dead soul. Zombies are of no use. Zombies only terrify people. And most of all, Zombies don't dream!
Wake up and live like the zombie that you really are!

That's where you start all over again, just thinking of the love you had, and enjoying as if this is just a nightmare, and one day you will wake up and feel the touch of her hand on yours!
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